2 Times A "Charm"....

Finally the "D" day has arrived after days full of hope and anxiety...
I started to feel some mild contraction on Saturday morning*6.00a.m to be exact*..
By evening, hubby suddenly craving for sushi so we went to get some and by then the contraction was getting painful and I was in tears while eating sushi. However,we still managed to look for a Post Natal tummy wrap (bengkung). Now that the surge was 10 minutes apart I need to stop walking every time it came and breathing as calmly as possible to bare the pain.
When we arrived at the house, I told my Gentle Birth facebook group mamas that I think I might be deliver soon and I had an overwhelming responds wishing me good luck and reminded me to just breath in/out and some advise telling me to go to sleep.*Oh my I did try to get some sleep but the intermitten pain makes it impossible, at last I was only manage to sleep when baby is out*
By 11pm we decided to go to the hospital after I was lying and rolling on the birth ball for 2 hours*I might have an experience of home birth if I just took the risk on staying at home for the whole night*.
We were warded*yes the three of us, the nurse had to get another bed for Flo and Ava*.
For the whole night, Ava and Flo were sleeping peacefully on the other bed*Ava was excited as she thought that we 're  in a hotel!* while I was bearing with the on and off contraction. By 4am,the nurse found me lying on the chair instead on the bed.
She checked my dilation and it's only 5cm and asked if I wanted a painkiller, of course I said no. I want it to be natural all the way*and that's what I thought it would be*.
Morning came and the doctor came,
"Why you refused to be given a painkiller?"
My goodness this doctor must be joking...they had been asking the same questions since they put me in last night and I started to get annoyed.
Doctor checked the dilation and she said the amniotic sac need to be burst artificially to make the baby come out faster. I was still contemplating to follow her advise not until when I saw the long rod which she's going to put it inside me. I found myself screaming saying no..the thought of the rod stuck inside  was making me sick!
By 10 a.m, they took me to the labor room and what makes me frustrated that I had been put with a drip/IV since according to the doctor I was already dehydrated (damn!!).Those IV in my left hand had psycho my brain into a paralyzed situation.It's getting difficult to move around and stay sane handling with the  contractions.
This time the pain begin quiet intense and I totally forgot what  I have learnt from the Gentle Birth group. I cannot resist to use the laughing gas when the nurse offer it to me. Everytime the surge came I put on the mask and suck it up. I hold the mask like there's no tomorrow,when Flo asked me to hand on the mask I told him to stay out of it. And I if I remembered correctly I had a sudden laugh in between the contraction.*The cause from over-used the mask*
During that time, Ava was in and out inside the labor room with aunt Supang chasing her. There was one moment Ava was silent under my bed and I heard some screw had been loosen up .*Oh my God the bed would fall anytime soon!*..and she came out under the bed and smile widely at me.
"It's okay mama!" she said before Flo and aunt Supang drag her out from the labor room.
By 11am, Doctor came and again, my dilation need to be check but without my realization she actually burst the amniotic sac using those rod! I didn't see anything since closed my eyes.
By the time my water break "artificially"...the contraction become twice intense and I was screaming like a mad woman. With the 2nd one I thought my 1st experience was enough to know how to push the baby out..boy I was wrong!Now I know every pregnancy has a different experience.
 It took about 6 to 10 times on pushing with a few times I made the wrong technics,the problem that I was having difficulties on listening to doctor instruction not until Flo came along.He stayed right beside my head and repeated what the doctor said in his own version which I understand more. During those gap both of my foot was on the two huge nurses side by side of the bed,since the two poles(which the function is used to help birthing women pushing the baby out) was not tough enough with my kicking*lol*. Each time the surge came,my leg and feet would be hitting hard at the nurses tummies*I should be grateful to them*. Finally I said to Flo I gave up on pushing* I might consider for a c-sec*..fortunately the doctor, the two nurses and Flo didn't gave up on me. They kept on telling me I can do it and this would be the last push. With the last strength that I have, I inhale deeply and started to push with all my will.*With the Gentle Birth method I should breath out calmly to let the baby out but the method seems not functioning to me anymore with so many interventions from the doctor. Started with the IV ,the artificial membrane rupture and the laughing gas*
And finally...the baby came out from the view.
When the doctor said,"It's a boy!!"
"What? but we thought the baby is a girl?"
I held up my head and saw him.
"It's a boy!!" Flo is overwhelmed and a bit surprise just like me.
"Oh Thank God!" with my head spinning like crazy*the after effect of the laughing gas* I can only saw a glimpse of Daniel's face and body and after that I dozed off.

My 2nd birth experience, a bit of drama but was faster compare to Ava since I didn't take any painkiller.
I just wish I could done better but the most important thing was, Daniel and I were both in good conditions and happy to said that after two days admitted we were free to go home and my breastfeeding journey is starting all over again..

The D day...

Finally the day for both of us had been waiting thou we didn't expect that I would delivered in two weeks earlier from the due date..
It started on Monday morning, my pee showed bloody mucus but I didn't realized it until we re backed at the house from the morning walk with Bumble. I already felt the contraction 's starting when we took our mornin walk, it came by 4 mins within and I have to stop walking whenever the pain occured. Backed to the house I was surprised to see lots of blood mucus in the toilet bowl and that's when I knew the time already came.
We went to see our gyneo to confirm about the contraction pain whater it's just false alarm or a real contraction. When doctor told me "your baby already engaged to ur cerviks", I thought I would be delivered in the next few minutes and who had expected I was in 24hr labour pain!!!
I got admitted to the wad soon after meeting with the doctor. It's been a restless hours in the wad waiting for the time Ava would be born. By the clock strike 12 am in midnite, the pain become more increased..I was struggling with the pain, I went out from the room and start walking around the clinic area, doing all sorts of ballet movement while holding the bar..walking alone doesnt make me comfortable..I have to do the squat, strecthing my legs and let out an annoying painfull sounds..on that time I was completely drowned in my own pain, i didnt care the nurse or ppl looking at me.By 2am( I was counting and checking the time all the time), the nurse came over me and asking me whater I would like to have an epidural or not. I did take two jabs of painkiller which only took 30 percent the pain but it didnt work for me ,to make it worst, the effect of the painkiller make me vomitting a few times!!! By 4am the nurse again came in and asked whater I need an epidural, I said no and I asked her to check my serviks whater the dilation already occured or not, noted! a person finger went into your vagina and stucked it very deep, not so comfortable and painful!! especially when the nurse who assisted you didnt have a clue on what she's doin!!! She said no dilation yet but then I alreday felt the pain bcame more increasing disturbing!!!Luckily hubby was there to remain me to keep on doing the yoga breathing, at least it lessen my pain. By 4.30 am I was already screaming in pain and the nurse came in, this time she's very annoyed and asking me WHY I DONT WANT AN EPIDURAL???
Thinking that I my delivery would not come anytime soon, I told hubby I decided to have an epidural thou it was not a good alternative, a bit disapointed hubby informed the nurse I'll be having the epidural, I then was sent to the labour room and all the way I was holding the end of the bed and cannot laying on the bed. At the labour room, hubby saw the Laughing Gas at the corner of the room and requested instead of having the epidural why not we tried the Laughing GAs first, so laughing gas it is, then I noticed there was something came out from the vagina, I looked down and saw a big bubble..well that's what I thought at first, in fact it was the placenta sacks, it already came out half of it!! One of the nurses take a glance on me and gasping, she called Dr.Mattu straight away and informed us the baby head already came out!!Hubby saw the head too..10 mins dr Mattu arrived and it only took about a few mins i did the push and Ava came to our view..it was the most wonderful moment in my life when doctor brought Ava to my lap, all the pain straight away gone. Ava was crying before doctor gave her to me, by the time she's in my lap, she's stop crying and her eyes open looking at me...that's was so amazing and wonderful moment and I kept on recalling it in my mind. One thing for sure I was glad I didn't take the epidural for the effect will take quite long to heal after the delivery and it actually can postponed the delivery. Credit to hubby, you are a very good coach, from the beginning until the end!!! Thanks very much hubby, I love you!!!