Just another ordinary day....

Yesterday was just like any other day. Hubby went to work, me with Ava in the house, doing laundry and house chores and trying to be supermom. I am kidding! It will be a crazy life if I want to be one of the supermom,I cannot make everything perfect!
Back to my story, yesterday was a bit struggle because I felt extra tired and lacked of sleep. And the tiredness lead to impatient, angry, snappy and resentful. Ava from the starting of the day was a bit crancky, maybe because of the effect from the last injection making her felt restless and some mood swing ( luckily no fever. ) so she needed me more than usual. She doesn't want to be alone most of the time which usually she would be playing on her own. Put her in the sarong she would wailed asking to be putting off from it. She's wailing whenever mommy was out of sight and cried for no reason. I was very exhausted and trying to control my nerve, I would reached and embraced her even I was desperately need to take the time off for myself even only a minute! Deep reflection is a luxury when time is short and baby are calling.
Hubby came from work, he took turn to take care our little baby and me fetched the laundry and dried them up.  At last by 1.30 pm Ava fell asleep for almost one in a half hours and instead taking a nap, I went to internet surf. Biggest mistake! I should take my nap because after that I became even resentful. Ava woke up wanting to have more attention. With my head desperately need a back up I took my pouch, took Ava in it and walked to the outside of the house. Outside the surrounding was very calming. The wind blows softly and the birds were chirping, that was my back up mode, I need some fresh air. When I looked around all the plants and flowers, I noticed some of the tree had grown taller and some of them has turned to yellows and while others had fallen, leaving the branches bare. Meanwhile my little one seemed very quiet looking and observing around her surrounding. She quietly watched me took the dry laundry, water the plants and feeding Bumble. I was very relieved I could overcome my emotion and made Ava comfortable at last.
Even with all of this and more upcoming challenging which I need to face up front each day, especially in overcoming my emotion, I'd never felt happier and more filled with love than I'd ever thought possible.

Today : Very excited, trying to reach her cloth diaper

 

Al....most th..ere..

 

                                  Instead try to grab her cds, she played with mummy's littlepod pouch.

On second thought...I decided not to give Ava solids for the time being...

After reading these articles, I decided to postponed on Ava's solid just for another month..( this is just my personal opinion, I'm sure every mother have a different instinct which suit  their own babies need, therefore they would decide differently.)

http://www.storknet.com/cubbies/breast/exas3.htm

http://www.storknet.com/cubbies/breast/newmancompress.htm

http://www.earthyfamily.com/A-babyFoods.htm

Solid at 5 months??? I'm not ready....

This last few days, Ava didn't have a good night sleep and so am I. She would be wide awake at 2 a.m till 3 a.m and slept for almost one hour then wake up again on 4 a.m. I knew this because every time she wake up, I'd checked on the clock. At first I thought it's only because we just moved our mattress on the floor and dismantled  the bed. ( Ava has started moving actively (she's co-sleeping with us )and we don't want to take a risk on her falling down from the bed ). Since back from the Hospital she has been sleeping in the middle (between mommy and daddy) but now we are putting her on the left side of the mattress which is set against the bedroom wall. So in the order of arrangement Ava on the left against the bedroom wall, mommy in the middle and daddy on the far right next to the door.

We thought she didn't manage to sleep well due to the changes in position and elevation (She is so used to see daddy next to her every night).
Yesterday we went to the clinic to give Ava her third injection and during our discussion with the doctor, I mentioned to him about Ava's difficulty in sleeping. So doctor asked us,
"Is she often salivating?"
"Is she reaching for her toe and possible sucking her toe?'
"Is she curious whenever you eat in front of her?"
"Does she has the the urge to grab things?"
"Does she already rolling and crawl?"
All our answered of the questioned above is "Yes, yes, yes,yes and yes."
The doctor said,
"Looking at her readiness, it would be a good indication to start Ava on solid already.."
I was shocked!! 'Solid?? Whattt? No??'
Then another question,
"Does she falls asleep after feeding during night time?"
I answered,
"Not anymore,"
To conclude in a decisive way he leave us with a punchy pitch "Oh ya, did I mention that her weight is almost  stagnant from last month? Her weight is 6.6kg."

According to the Doctor, my milk had been fully optimized, she has already double her weight from birth and she need solid to make her more full and more sleepy.
I am actually not really keen on starting  solid for Ava at 5 months. My earliest plan is to give her fully on breastfeed up till her 6 month old and the worst thing is I 'm not ready to  start the weaning process for her yet, but she's grown up so fast.
After this journey, I don't know why this feeling exist in me, she's ready but I m just not yet ready to let her eat other than from me. I guess this is the first of many first which I need to get ready for . (E.g : 1st time running around the house, first potty, 1st time going to the nursery, first time going to school etc.)
Since last night we have been discussing what kind of food to start with for Ava. A lot of things to consider, Nutritions, Hygine, Safety (from chocking, heat, allergy), Menu; easiness to prepare, how and when to introduce what food and Eating manners.


Today, hubby and I will be doing some shopping for her eating utensils and  food. I can't believe Ava will be eating solid already ( though I'm still not sure about this but we'll be doing the shopping anyway)..
As heavy as my feeling for her to eat solid...I will march on in this journey...

Yours truly,
Chef Mom