Quote of the Day.

"Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can."

-Arthur Ashe (1943-1993); American tennis player, social activist

Sunday, October 30, 2011


LennyLamb woven bamboo wrap

The wrap is not as stiff as the cotton linen wrap,it's airy,soft(no need to broken in) and easy to manage. This is me doing the tibetan back carry on Aza and another picture with front carry.But definitely a wrap with linen+cotton wins for carry a heavy toddler.For the time being I just enjoying wrapping my baby with this yummy color rainbow wrap until I feel it's time to upgrade with another different material of wrap or baby carrier:)).


On the verge of feeling high on doing some retail therapy:)).

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

I Love Fluffy Mail!!!!

 Adding into my library crochet books, Mei Hooi helped me to get these during the Big Bad Wolf Books Sale at KL recently. Total for this three books only cost RM37.50 including delivery!!Totally bargains!!

Lenny Lamb bamboo woven wrap, bought this brand new from Brenda and also a bargain price for a woven wrap! Can't wait to do some action shot with this lovely.

Here's the review from one of the mama about this wrap :

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Rucksack Tibetan back carry

Flo's going to be furious when he saw this but don't worry honey, I was on the bed mattress all the time when I 'm doing this.
Aza is usually very content even I put him in the crib until he fell asleep by himself but not today.
After nursing, I put him in the crib and he wailed. Put him on the rocking chair,the wailing become more intense. Nursing him again and put back on the crib..a few second later, he started to cry.
So I grab my Didymos wrap gradation and brought Aza on my back.(Please don't attempt this kind of carrying-style if you're not confident enough to hold your baby on the back)
Once I completely finished, he already sleeping soundly at my back and 2 hours later, he's up again for milk.
During those time, I managed to sort out the nursery room, hanged the laundry and had time to one on one with Ava. Again, babywearing saved the day.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

2 Times A "Charm"....

Finally the "D" day has arrived after days full of hope and anxiety...
I started to feel some mild contraction on Saturday morning*6.00a.m to be exact*..
By evening, hubby suddenly craving for sushi so we went to get some and by then the contraction was getting painful and I was in tears while eating sushi. However,we still managed to look for a Post Natal tummy wrap (bengkung). Now that the surge was 10 minutes apart I need to stop walking every time it came and breathing as calmly as possible to bare the pain.
When we arrived at the house, I told my Gentle Birth facebook group mamas that I think I might be deliver soon and I had an overwhelming responds wishing me good luck and reminded me to just breath in/out and some advise telling me to go to sleep.*Oh my I did try to get some sleep but the intermitten pain makes it impossible, at last I was only manage to sleep when baby is out*
By 11pm we decided to go to the hospital after I was lying and rolling on the birth ball for 2 hours*I might have an experience of home birth if I just took the risk on staying at home for the whole night*.
We were warded*yes the three of us, the nurse had to get another bed for Flo and Ava*.
For the whole night, Ava and Flo were sleeping peacefully on the other bed*Ava was excited as she thought that we 're  in a hotel!* while I was bearing with the on and off contraction. By 4am,the nurse found me lying on the chair instead on the bed.
She checked my dilation and it's only 5cm and asked if I wanted a painkiller, of course I said no. I want it to be natural all the way*and that's what I thought it would be*.
Morning came and the doctor came,
"Why you refused to be given a painkiller?"
My goodness this doctor must be joking...they had been asking the same questions since they put me in last night and I started to get annoyed.
Doctor checked the dilation and she said the amniotic sac need to be burst artificially to make the baby come out faster. I was still contemplating to follow her advise not until when I saw the long rod which she's going to put it inside me. I found myself screaming saying no..the thought of the rod stuck inside  was making me sick!
By 10 a.m, they took me to the labor room and what makes me frustrated that I had been put with a drip/IV since according to the doctor I was already dehydrated (damn!!).Those IV in my left hand had psycho my brain into a paralyzed situation.It's getting difficult to move around and stay sane handling with the  contractions.
This time the pain begin quiet intense and I totally forgot what  I have learnt from the Gentle Birth group. I cannot resist to use the laughing gas when the nurse offer it to me. Everytime the surge came I put on the mask and suck it up. I hold the mask like there's no tomorrow,when Flo asked me to hand on the mask I told him to stay out of it. And I if I remembered correctly I had a sudden laugh in between the contraction.*The cause from over-used the mask*
During that time, Ava was in and out inside the labor room with aunt Supang chasing her. There was one moment Ava was silent under my bed and I heard some screw had been loosen up .*Oh my God the bed would fall anytime soon!*..and she came out under the bed and smile widely at me.
"It's okay mama!" she said before Flo and aunt Supang drag her out from the labor room.
By 11am, Doctor came and again, my dilation need to be check but without my realization she actually burst the amniotic sac using those rod! I didn't see anything since closed my eyes.
By the time my water break "artificially"...the contraction become twice intense and I was screaming like a mad woman. With the 2nd one I thought my 1st experience was enough to know how to push the baby out..boy I was wrong!Now I know every pregnancy has a different experience.
 It took about 6 to 10 times on pushing with a few times I made the wrong technics,the problem that I was having difficulties on listening to doctor instruction not until Flo came along.He stayed right beside my head and repeated what the doctor said in his own version which I understand more. During those gap both of my foot was on the two huge nurses side by side of the bed,since the two poles(which the function is used to help birthing women pushing the baby out) was not tough enough with my kicking*lol*. Each time the surge came,my leg and feet would be hitting hard at the nurses tummies*I should be grateful to them*. Finally I said to Flo I gave up on pushing* I might consider for a c-sec*..fortunately the doctor, the two nurses and Flo didn't gave up on me. They kept on telling me I can do it and this would be the last push. With the last strength that I have, I inhale deeply and started to push with all my will.*With the Gentle Birth method I should breath out calmly to let the baby out but the method seems not functioning to me anymore with so many interventions from the doctor. Started with the IV ,the artificial membrane rupture and the laughing gas*
And finally...the baby came out from the view.
When the doctor said,"It's a boy!!"
"What? but we thought the baby is a girl?"
I held up my head and saw him.
"It's a boy!!" Flo is overwhelmed and a bit surprise just like me.
"Oh Thank God!" with my head spinning like crazy*the after effect of the laughing gas* I can only saw a glimpse of Daniel's face and body and after that I dozed off.

My 2nd birth experience, a bit of drama but was faster compare to Ava since I didn't take any painkiller.
I just wish I could done better but the most important thing was, Daniel and I were both in good conditions and happy to said that after two days admitted we were free to go home and my breastfeeding journey is starting all over again..

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Am a mother of two!

How am I feeling?
Overjoy, exhausted and overwhelming with the sudden change.

How'S Ava adapting?
She's more frequent on asking for milk from my breast. Every time Daniel needs to be fed, Ava went and asking for nenen and there's one time she cut on the line and Daniel left with a confuse face on my lap.
Attention seeker- Ava would do anything to get the attention from us, even putting her doll for a bath at Daniel's basin or throwing a sudden tantrum or offering me some of her snack.
But most of the time she's adapting quite well and very proud of herself for being a big sister.

How's Daniel so far?
He's sleeping most of the time. His timetable is like waking up, nursing, pooping and sleeping*The cycle keep on repeating*
We can just place him on the crib and he would sleep by himself.

How's Flo?
He helps me a lot during this confinement and mil came along to help for the whole month.
He's  the chef for my confinement menu,Ava's best buddy and Daniel's poo cleaner.
He 's making sure I don't get caught with the baby blue symptom during this time and so far I managed to get in control with my emotion.

All in all, I am feeling blessed with all the help from people around me and thanks again to  aunt Supang for helping us to take care of our lil Ava during the labor. Feeling sorry for aunt when you had to witness my labor pain inside the labor room.hehe.

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