What A Day

Today the three of us went out to Boulevard ( paying internet bills ) and I carried Ava with my new pink sling from Little Pod. Still strugling with the sling and many times we had to stop walking just to re arrange Ava in it. While hubby went shopping for groceries, Ava and I rested at the Mc D ice cream counter. I was quiet hungry and ordered a slice of cheese cake and pearl milk tea but surprisingly it's not satisfied my hunger. I let both of it half eaten and drink and went to Mc D bought the ice cream sundae( I look like a 10 months pregnant woman bcoz of Ava in the sling ) . I stop eating it, not even half of it. After went back home, feeding Ava nearly took 1 hour and I was hungry like crazy , my body was shaking terribly. I realized now that I am no longer longing to eat outside food bcoz the real food that I really need is a homemade dishes!! After 1 months eating confinement dish I found out what my body really wants. They just want to have the nourishment from the good ingredients. That's a lot improvement of myself since before this I was a junk food addicts.

Ava's now is already 1 months in a half. She already know how to respond whenever we re talking to her..she will give a huge grin when she woke up in the morning and let the sound of "ooh" and "aahh" when talking to her.
I keep on falling in love with her everyday..

A New Found Life.

It’s been nearly a month I didn’t update my blog..I would want to inform everybody that my blog is officially all about our family struggling in dealing a world of parenthood which is new to both of us and a new found tasks which I didn’t expect will be one of my routine…”breastfeeding”.
Attaining a baby is quiet challenging work to do which no one tell me about the sleepless night!!.We have to feed her very 2 to 3 hours, changing diapers, entertain her and put her into sleep after cuddling her almost 1 hour to get her to sleep every night. Itu kalo mood dia bagus, if the baby crancky, it can get until a few hour to get her sleep and by then it’s time to feed her again. Luckily in term of breastfeed ,the baby will sleep more during nighttime where as in formula milk sometimes parent have to feed every two hours even after midnite. So to make everything in under control around the house, our routine now is all about system, discipline and teamwork. Indeed the baby came thru from me yet she’s still a mysterious person to us. She has her own personality and we ‘re still learning to get to know her.
It's hard at the beginning to have this task, I cannot face the fact why is now i dun have enough sleep anymore and why I cannot do the things i like to do( shopping nda tentu pasal, makan junkfood, mansau sana sini)? And why can she nap for more than a half hour?I fought with myself far more than my baby did. It started to seem as if the days were all bad, punctuated occasionally by something going well.
I had the feeling that if I could just get the day to go smoothly, I could have time to get back to my own agenda. But as i thought this, it was slowly occuring to me that this taking-care-of-my-baby thing is my agenda.It wasn't something to get thru before I could get back my regularly schedule day. This is it. Keeping my baby safe, happy, well feed and diapered. This is the job. This is what i am doing with my days. This is the work of parenting.
I didn't want to fight with myself anymore over what should be on the big screen. I had two choices, denial or acceptance. Acceptance seemed more functional. The big picture could remain in focus, I am in charge of raising Ava all day.
It is time to feed Ava already, thou breastfeeding can be tiring for a new mother but as Ava looked up at me from my lap with her big grin as she sucking my breast. I decided to enjoy the whole journey with her....

The truth about me!!!

Let me try this out – first time doing this (got tagged by a friend).
A # Attached or single?
Attached
B# Best friend?
There are only a few that I can count..
C# Cake or Pie?
Cake..I seldom eat pie..
D# Day of choice?
Saturday and Sunday (bcoz hubby’s not working..)
E# Essential item?
My trusty handphone.
F# Favorite color?
I don’t have any preferences..it’s usually according to the occasion.
G# Gummy bears or worms?
Strictly on sugar free diet..
H# Hometown?
Sierra, Kay-kay
F# Favorite indulgence?
Sleep…sleep..sleep.., eat..eat..eat…and sitting on the bean chair
J# January or July?
July, my birthday..
K# Kids?
According to God’s will..at the moment, I enjoy this little one that we just have..
L# Life isn’t complete without?
Prayer and family
M# Marriage date?
07.06.08
N# Number of magazine subscriptions?
I don’t do subs…
O# Oranges or Apples?
Both..
P# Phobias?
Reptiles and birds!!
Q# Quote?
“Deep breathe in and out”
R# Reasons to smile?
Daydreaming
S# Season of choice?
Rainy days!!
T# Tag five people.
I would have tag Fiona, Steph, Femelda and Angela…
U# Unknown fact about me?
No matter any mood I’m in, I can suddenly get anxiety attack.
V# Vegetable?
Anything blanch with belacan on the side...ngeh ngeh..
W# Worst habit?
Mood swing..
X# X Ray or Ultrasound?I
It depends..tapi kalo buli itu x-ray nda mau!!
Y# Your favorite foods?
At the moment..chicken soup with ginger ,kae-ci and young papaya..apa2 saja yang buli tambah susu badan..hehehe..
Z# Zodiac sign?
Cancer but I don’t do zodiac…